thousand ways to die, one life to live..

Sometime ago, someone told me life is about choices and consequences. It's a very common statement that makes sense in a very realistic and static point of view. The consequence of failing your exam is because you choose to be lazy or maybe you're being dump by your partner because you choose to do something that indirectly lead to that incident? Sometimes it's not for us to choose since although there are many different choices that can be made, our path has already been decided may it be destiny or fate or maybe we don't know about the consequences that will happen. If things are that simple and predictable and we always made the right choice, life would not be as dynamic as before.

I always believe in having choices that leads to different outcomes. I love this theory coz it sounds like karma, be good to others and others will be good to you (sometimes...) But then, I do notice that I'd made a number of wrong decisions which never lead to satisfactory consequences. Why when you are realistic and confident enough, smart but still somehow manage to pick the wrong choice? That's my problem, I think too highly about myself and being too confident with it. Again sometimes it's not just about the choice it's about the whole process..

And this bring my mind wondering, there are like thousands of ways to die and yet we only have one chance doing it. Ain't we suppose to die in a manner we'd always dream of or maybe most people just ignore such thought fear of facing death. Oh well, I'm so free that I could made a list of ways to die in general..

Dying in accident (rating 2/10)
A very bad way to die indeed, may it be car accident or natural disaster coz you'll not obtained the corpse of yourself in a perfect form. Ugly way of dying and will make people around you depress if you have someone who love you.

Dying of sickness (rating 3/10)
Life is no 'Walk to Remember' movie where there's someone going to marry you just because you are dying of leukimia. Instead you'll get very skinny and boney (if you enjoy looking at bones of yourself then it wud be fine) and the medical bill will cost alot to your family till a stage they'd hope u shud go to god to end everyone's suffering.

Dying of laughter (rating 5/10)
At least you had fun before you die ...

Dying of old age (rating 7/10)
Tho some(there are sick people everywhere) might think it's ugly to die during old age n always hope to die before the physical turns into dried prunes, it's the best way of dying since people around you will not feel much grieve and you'd seen enough of the world.. unless you die a virgin.. duh~

Dying in heroic act (rating 8/10)
I dont mean saving a stupid kid in the lake n get drown to death as heroic act. What I mean is like Bruce Willis in the movie 'Armageddon' where he'd sacrifice his life to save the world. By so at least your name will be recorded in history. It proves your existance in this world..

Orgasmic death ! (HOLY SHIT 10/10 !)
Fuck fuck fuck n die ~ ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
kidding !

But then, people says its not about how you die but its about how you'd lived your life. It's not about the consequences from the choice you've made but it's the process of it from the choice. There's no single rule that applies to everything in the world. Open up your mind and heart to absorb what the world can offer you in the process of living your life, may it be the right or wrong choice it doesnt matter at all sometimes. Well, even if I sounds gungho in all those wisdom words of mine but could I implement them ? Open up mind n heart ? I'm always contradicting with myself...

What a long piece of crap .. hahaha ~