Memory of a lifetime

Guess this is how a year of romance ends, and it's not that depressing after all. For me I always know that love is not suitable for me at all, I'm lame at it and my rational brain knows that it wouldn't last long enough. I've learn a lot from this relationship, about giving, taking and also the non existence of logic in it. Relationship is never realistic. I have met a girl that is so wonderful till I could deeply fall for her without holding back. She’s great, smart and sweet, not any ordinary person you could imagine.. and that’s what makes her so lovely. I never regret loving her whole heartly because she’s the only one that I’m willing to do so. I’m always very reserved but to her it’s totally different. From this relationship I’ve learn that giving is just not enough. It takes both parties to indulge in it. She need romance, surprises and stuff that could get her all excited and I just couldn’t fulfill that. She loves me and her expectations on romance … It’s just not practically possible for me to sacrifice everything for it, distance makes it harder to accomplish. I wouldn’t blame anyone; guess that we fall in love in the wrong stage of life, where I am limited by a lot of stuff to fulfill her romance, and she is not ready for a static relationship. Things will be better if we are to meet 5 years later. Guess we’re still so young and if things just drag on without any solution it’ll just rot down da drain. It’s not easy for me to find someone else; maybe not possible at all but this will be the best solution. Keeping a relationship just for the sake of responsibility make things worst although I still love her. The memory with her will last forever …

Well it all started years back when I was in Melaka, was shopping at Tesco with my friend Bryan. When we’re going back his mom was asking where he was, and I was looking for him until I reach a VCD shop where she is working there. Bryan was talking to her.. and we just hi and bye..

Time passed, after few months we get to chat online, but not that often. She lost her phone so I couldn’t get to contact her at all, until somehow we get closer through chatting online. After almost a year the first time we met back was when I needed her help to look for my friend Rachel’s house. I could still remember the first thing she bump into the car is to get herself troubled with the safety belt and I’ve to help her with that. A girl that craps a lot, she even asked me the fur used to make the dashboard cover =)

The next day, which is the week of Christmas, we went for our first date late at night. We always went out late. It’s Portuguese Settlement where we walked around looking at the Christmas lightings on the trees and houses. Then to Klebang Beach, the lamest place in Melaka and we managed to till half way until she dragged me back to the car due to tiredness.

The second time, which is after Christmas is the first time I managed to hold her hand. I get a bottle of glow in da dark stars as Christmas gift. We went to Wings for food and as usual I’m the only one to eat. Sang her a lame song with da stupid guitar of mine and this time we managed to walk till da haunted house of Klebang. Our third date, we walk on da opposite way towards the road and houses. I was kinda regret to suggest that since it was kinda dangerous with all the cars moving in high speed so I kept ensuring her to walk on the inside lane.

Throughout our dates, most of the time it involves going to the beach. There’s once this girl have the chance to drive me out and her driving is scary but she’s so cute driving =). Most of the time I’ll be the one to be confused of where to go since it’s always after 10 or 11 at night and when it’s her turn to drive around, she would still end up in Klebang. I’ve lost track how many times we actually went out, we met around twice a week when I was still in Melaka. When she decided to quit her jpa and came back, it’s the moment where I worried about her the most. That night we went out again and I was glad that she could still cope with it well, it was Wednesday. Time passed quickly, and it’s time for me to transfer back to KL. The night when my brother came from KL, it was raining and she visited my room, messy room. Then we just drove around and sit inside the car, under the rain. The last night of the day I’m in Melaka, we managed to go out again and this time, it’s the most beautiful sky I’ve ever seen.. thousands of stars to bid us goodbye, but I know we should go on with life.

We meet less often then, there’s once I drove all the way to find her, just before I went UK. Secret recipe, a piece of marble cheese and chocolate fudge .. of course I finished them all again. Since it’s so late again, Klebang … and I managed to steal her first kiss. I’ve got a house in Melaka and I’ll use it as a reason for me to go there. Once we went for cinema and again it’s her first time since many years visiting the cinema. It’s batman. Sushi King shows me that she’s really a weirdo in dining.. and her favorite unagi left me with all the rice to finish up. MK Bingo for papaya + egg and and we’re so crazy that we went MP again for another Tamil movie, but never managed to watch it. McD next and we just sat in the car park infront of McD. There’s another time we watch a horror movie and I regretted dragging her into it. For most of the time our date will just be sitting inside the car doing nothing, spending quality time together.

Time really flies, and now the feeling has gone. We’re just too young to understand love yet. It’s not that easy just to maintain it for so many years till we could finally get together and now it’s a break. Even if things drag on, it’s not possible to stay forever… until we truly learn what love is. Well, one fine day we might just bump back in da street and start a whole romance fantasy again =) not realistic for me but that’s always what she dream of. It’s fate if we’re mean to be together.. just like the crappy “My Sassy Girl” story =p

A memory of love that’ll never be forgotten ..