Trying too hard

Perhaps what she mentioned before was right. Our outings seem to be kinda boring in some sense. As a pampered brat she has all da rights not to plan for anything and I'm suppose to compromise on that characteristic of hers since when you are loving someone you should love every pieces of shit in her.

After rationalizing the situation, I guess Melaka has really little places to go especially when the hours we went out prohibits alot of places. I'm not a host in Melaka and I don't have a home there so I couldnt invite over to my place to spend some quality time. Maybe I'm trying too hard to make every meeting a date. Maybe even when we meet it's not that important to go for a date as well. It's this mentality of mine that in long distance relationship, we should fully utilize every opportunity to meet up.. which is wrong. Sometimes even if you try too hard it'll still end up boring and will just rot everything that has been built up.

The balance between spending enough time together and having a moment of great time is important. This makes long distance crappy relationship such a pain in da ass. Perhaps sometimes it's better that even when we have the opportunity to meet up, it's better to just have a hug and a kiss in da cheek and bid goodbye if there's nothing interesting up in da mind. But beware that too much of such act will lead to lazy brain that will not take initiative to do plannings unless you're considered pampered brat.

So, guess that I shouldnt try too hard. My new approach is to love whole heartly and leave everything to fate. It's much more fun when we could bump in streets coincidentally just like hongkie drama, altough it's a tough chance...