The heart is still the same

Many months ago I told myself to learn to let go but until now it's still difficult. Just now I saw the displayed msn nick of my ex-lover on finding some particular song. Without hesitation my finger goes clicking on web browser and spent sometime searching for it voluntary and as usual will always end up with the wrong song for her. The point is, I'm still stupidly trying to fulfill her request for the sake of making her happy ? Or craving for her acknowledgement ?

It's sooooooo wrong... if love has an expiry date ~